26.3.07
HOW DO I DEALHow do I deal with you? How do I deal with me?
When I don't even know myself, Or what it is you want from me.
How do I deal with us? How do I know what's real?
When I don't even trust myself, Or what it is I feel.
And how do I deal?
When everybody's telling me what the hell I have to do.
How do I deal? How do I deal?
How do I, How do I,How do I, How do I,
How do I deal with you?
At night I lay in bed, with static in my head.
How do I deal...
you're nobody until you're talked about.
9:24 PM
SPIES, LIES, and ALIBIES.this is the latest episode of laguna beach on mtv. the show is so shallow because it just focuses on typical high school life. pero everytime i watch it, im super nasasad. kasi ang daming drama ng buhay nila, ang kalat pa. sadness. it is indeed, a reality tv show. i really like kyndra. i love the way she handle things. so not mature (like me) pero she always get out of things. and i love the fact na pareho kami mag make-up ah! pink eyeshadow, mascara, and eyeliner. so pretty. haha.
i love the title. SPIES, LIES, and ALIBIES. gotta love it! haaay.
you're nobody until you're talked about.
9:10 PM
25.3.07
I DO - lisa loeb
When I'm done with thinking, then I'm done with you.
When I'm done with crying, then I'm done with you.
When I feel so tired, then I'm done with you.
Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way
And I do. You can't hear it, but I do.
You can't hear it, but I do.
***
You're trying to convince me that what I've done's not right.
I get so frustrated, I stay up every night.
You ask me for an answer, and I'm so tired that I'm up in the air.
Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way
And I do. You can't hear it, but I do.
You can't hear it,
but I'm feeling this way just because you say
***
I will be ignored and
I will be denied and
I could be erased and
I could be brushed aside and
I will get scared and I will get shoved down,
But I feel like I do because you push me around
***
I'm starting to ignore you, I've doubted you so long.
I'm tired of overthinking, I know you don't belong.
Now I'm asking questions - no one pushes me around.
Everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -
And I do. You can't hear it, but I do.
You don't seem angry, but I do.
I do.
~i always find myself making things worse~
you're nobody until you're talked about.
9:32 AM
23.3.07
ABOUT PLAYS AND STUFF.. wala lang, gusto ko lang ilist down ung mga credentials ko in the
theater arts.haha.
1. the first one is the play "susi" for the artistang artlets. i was the
technical director.we won best play and of course i won best technical director.
2. the second one is the "once on this island" a play for our english subject. i was
ti moune, the lead actress. we got the highest score out of the whole batch.
3. lastly is the "little mermaid" a play for our art app. its just like a classroom skit, small time lang. i was
Ariel. one again, highest kami.
astig noh? kahit lagi akong binabash ng mga people na hindi ako good enough or that i need acting lessons/ technical lessons, it always turn out to be PERFECT. bwahahaha. kasi we always pull it through at the last minute. by the way, im a ONE TIME BIG TIME actress/ technical director. i cant perform my best when its not yet the real deal.
director- utak ng buong play.
actress- tagagawa ng gustong mangyari ng director.
technical director- tagbibigay ng liwanag at musika sa play.
i really really dont wanna be an actress sa isang play na may walang kwentang director. kasi im sanay na ang
director ang MAG-DIDIRECT sa isang artista. ang director ang bahala magbigay sa iyo ng emosyon na kailangan mong maramdaman at kilos na kailangan mong gawin, di na iyon problema ng artista.
ang tanging bagay na gagawin lang ng isang artista ay umarte. un lang. duh! haha...
***Sana wag mong sisihin,
Kung di ko kayang pigilin.
Sabi mo na mahal mo ko,
Ngunit di naman seryoso.
Sana magkasingkulay,
Ang drama at tunay na buhay ko.
Ang tanging pag-asa ko,
Ay nasa tambalang ito.
*blah*,once again. isipin mo na kung anong gusto mong isipin. problema mo na un. its been nine long days. haha
you're nobody until you're talked about.
2:23 PM
19.3.07
THE TEXT.does a text message really means something?hmmmm..
bahala ka. ISIPIN MO NA KUNG ANO ANG GUSTO MONG ISIPIN. problema mo na yun.
ano kaya ang mga pwede niyang maisip?
a. ganyan talaga ang personality niya.
b. siguro she likes me.
c. ang bait naman niya.
d. anong dale ng babaeng ito.
*it hurts badly. when he stares at me with no love in his eyes.*
oh well, going back to my life.
um, i saw webb kanina. i super like that guy! kasi ang friendly niya, i kinda feel wanted. unlike other guys! kasi pag ung ibang guys nag-hi, tamang smile lang or laki ng mata. pero si webb, todo pansin talaga. nakakatuwa naman. sabagay. iba iba nga ang timpla ng tao.
you're nobody until you're talked about.
6:21 PM
15.3.07
3 points.!.Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend
Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me
No way No way
No, it's not a secret
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend
She's like so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
(And that's what everyone's talking about)
i went to makati today. then to school. cause ive got nothin to do at home. saw alot of people and talked to almost all of them. since the modeling thing, kanina ko lang ulet nakausap ng matagal si raf raf. nakakamiss. speaking of models, i saw webb din kanina. then, i saw jeff din sa school. then nakasama ko pa si nica pauwi. ayos.
its fun to watch people. this day is actually fun.haha
you're nobody until you're talked about.
8:51 PM
13.3.07
s halalalala my oh my oh my. you gotta kiss the girl.
at last. its done na. whew! we all never expected na kami ung magiging highest. kasi ang dami naming problems. astig talaga. haha. i so love my teammates.at first super im hesitant maging Ariel. for oh so many reasons. But i was wrong. it all turned out to be great. you know what? may isang perk pa ung pagiging Ariel. si Prince Eric!!! haha. habang nagpplay ung ibang groups, we were kinda nagaaral kung pano magconnect kasi ang super awkward namin palagi every practice eh. wahaha. ang weird!its fun. the funnest.*napapansin mo na yata. nakakahiya naman. gusto lang naman kitang titigan.*
you're nobody until you're talked about.
10:17 AM
10.3.07
i saw you standing in my head lights! ...blink blink blink!
you had a one shity day, and mine was crappy.
thinking about YOU scares the hell out of me. kasi ang dami mong pwedeng magawa na ikakasad ko. and heck, you just did one kahapon. buti na lang talaga at swinerte ako kahapon, kaya naman di na ako naginarte pa. haha
*napapansin mo na yata. nakakahiya naman. gusto lang naman kitang titigan.*
you're nobody until you're talked about.
10:18 AM
2.3.07
i so hate stupid EXes. i just hate them. i think they are the mose pathetic creatures ever created. they tend to text too much non-sense, expressing their love left for their ex well in fact the person doesnt give a damn about them. they pretend to missend a message to their ex hoping that their ex would care if they already have someone new. EEEWWW. how pathetic. how LOW could these creatures be?
I always always wanted to be part of the little mermaid cast when i was 15 yrs old. i wanted to be like carol banawa, karel, and kc. but i didnt got the chance to audition, kasi im not that good an actress when i was 15 yrs old. AND now magpplay kami ng little mermaid. haha. and guess what? im Ariel. nice isnt it? But WTF?!? small time lang naman toh. classroom skit kung baga. but its really fun to get to sing "part of their world". makes me feel like a mermaid.hehehe.
in conclusion: "I ALWAYS GET WHAT I WANT". totoo. promise.
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You call yesterday to basically say That you care for me but that you're just not in love Immediatly I pretended to beel similary And led you to believe I was O.K. To just walk away from the one thing That's unyielding and scared to me
So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't Got a clue Of the pain that rejection is putting you through Do you calling to your pride and sing "I will survive" Do you lash out and say: "How dare you leave this way" Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly loosing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry.
you're nobody until you're talked about.
10:59 PM
1.3.07
i love myself. so, sue me.i love the fact that im a size 1.
i love the fact that im 5"6.
i love the fact that im a size 32A (even if people mock me about it).
i love the fact that im model-ish.
i love the fact that im rocker-ish.
i love the fact that im maarte-ish.
i love the fact that i can wear skinny jeans.
i love the fact that i can wear legings.
i love the fact that i can wear free size shirts.
i love the fact that i can join modeling searches.
i love the fact that i can act.
i love the fact that i can join a band.
i love the fact that im not that dumb.
i love the fact that ive got all the friends that i want.
i love the fact that i can actually be in an mtv of a not so popular band.
i love the fact that im me.
hahahaha
ayos! never been happier. hahaha.
you're nobody until you're talked about.
7:48 PM
