someday, one day, monday...

you'll sing this song to me! kpag napunta ka nanaman sa isang typical girl (hence, emotional).. you'll see the diffrnce! you'll really really see, honey!

i'll wait patiently for that moment..

someday, one day, monday!

JACK'S MANNEQUIN
the mixed tape

This is morning
That's when I spend the most time
Thinking 'bout what I've given up
This is a warning
When you start the day just to close the curtains
You're thinking 'bout what I've given up

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
Retracing every step you made
And you said you meant it
And there's a piece of me in every single
Second of every single day
But if it's true then tell me how it got this way

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

And I can't get to youI can't get to you
I can't get to you (you, you)
Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I conduct a symphony of sound

Where are you now?
As I'm cutting through you track by track
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of
And where are you now?
And where are you now?

And this is my mixed tape for her
It's like I wrote every note
With my own fingers


1. What's the first thing you notice about a guy?
^ his hair.. dapat magulo!

2. What's a true gentleman?
^ always puts my needs first before his.

3. What's the best present you've ever gotten?
^ an uber nice jacket..

4. What do you like about yourself?
^ I have faith and im willing to learn.

5. When is it getting serious?
^ it never does.

6. What's the greatest lesson you've ever learned?
^ steady lang. wag magpadala sa agos ng buhay! ..kung may gusto kang bagay or tao, dont settle for less! gawin mo lahat ng paraan para makuha ung gusto mo!..kasi at the end of the day ung gusto mo pa rin talaga ung hahanap hanapin mo! magsasayang ka lang ng panahon dun sa isang pinili mo na di mo naman talagang gusto! Sayang lang talaga.

7. What CD are you listening to right now?
^ Jack's Mannequin, Dishwalla, Fly LEaf, Paramore

8. What's your favorite outfit?
^ skinny jeans, statement shirt, shoes, jacket

9. What's your most embarassing moment?
^ sa mumba's garden. i was with sale, gelo, pete, and syndy.. my boyfriend(ex) called and i accidentally answered it.i had to run far away because the boys are making some noise.. dko nakita na may wire pala dun sa tinakbuhan ko.. my neck got caught with it.. waaaah! then they laughed so hard! ..nahuli pa tuloy ako ng bf ko na may kasama akong boys! patay!haha

10. What's your favorite guilty pleasure?
^ ahahahaha.. listening and watching Callalily! ahahahaha sssshhhhh! secret lang yan! hahaha they give me goosebumps!!

11. Do you believe that music have the power to shape character for better or worse?
^ oh yes. i think kung ano ung pinapakinggan nung isang tao, un ung magiging perception niya sa buhay.

12. What's your favorite concert?
^ Green Day's Bullet In A Bible... i wasnt technically there, but i saw it on dvd! the bestest!!!

13. How do you understand good music?
^ walang panget na music. lahat pinaghirapan. i think, makikita natin ang pagkaganda ng music sa intentions at purpose ng nagsulat. klangan kasi galing sa puso.

14. What particular song is in your mind?
^ Emily by PAraluman... *but i simply can't, no i simply can't*

15. What's your favorite word?
^ STEADY.steady, steady, steady lang!

16. Any music you dislike?
^ lahat sana gusto ko na.. naimbento pa kasi yang kajologan na novelty songs eh! grrr!

17. do you think music can heal sick people?
^ oh yes. parang gamot yan.. not for the body per se! pero sa soul.. oo! kasi music connotes spiritual entity in human beings!! seriously!

18. If you were a singer, who would you be?
^ Brandon Boyd. He's one hell of a band vocalist!

19.What do you think the world would be without music?
^ sadness. dull. empty.

20. If you were a song, what song would you be and why?
^ Every little thing by Dishwalla.. kasi.. i wish i could be every little thing he wanted! ahaha

21. If you could hear what someone is thinking for a day, who whould you choose?
^ Nostradamus.

22. if you had only 24 hours to live, what would you do?
^ be with my family and lahat ng importanteng tao sa buhay ko. at the last hour, dapat may malupet na fireworks display hangang mamatay na ako! haha

23. What song would you be singing for the last time?
^ Rest in Pieces by Saliva

24. If you could ask God one question, what would it be?
^ bakit niya inisip na gawin lahat ng toh..

25. What is the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to you?
^ you ROCK my world! - sweetest phrase ever!!! natalo pa nito ang i love you! (para sakin) haha

26. Is there anything more you wanna change about yourself?
^ Attitude. I think i need to be mature na and stop being so frickin happy go lucky person.

27. If you could be a superhero for a day, who would you be and what will you do?
^ I just wanna be invisible. Magtatago lang ako buong day and magsstalk ng mga tao. Pero wait, what's so super about that?! haha

28. If you could not differentiate beautiful from ugly, how would you choose your spouse?
^ ah madali lang yan! ..looks never did matter to me! ..basta gusto ko lang ung palagi siyang nandiyan para sakin.un lang. un na un eh! ..basta walang iwanan!! Steady lang!

29. If you were given a chance to be a man for a day, who would you choose?
^ Honestly.. si Kean! gusto ko lang malaman ung feeling na madaming may gusto at ayaw sakin.. like at the end of the daykung ano ba talaga ung magmamatter most!

30. What's your biggest fear?
^ To be caught totally off guard.





No pretensions.

Remember what it felt like when you found out that your ex-boyfriend had found someone new? You were so certain you were making the right decision when you broke up with him. After all, it wasn't working out. You never really got along with each other.

You were more bad than good for each other in the long run, and since the break-up, you've been happier and haven't looked back since. But the moment you see him with someone new, you remember none of this. All of it is clouded over by the dull, empty, bitter feeling of being replaced, supplanted. And suddenly, illogically, you want him back. Desperately.

I get that feeling sometimes! It's easy to feel that way when you have nothing. Everyday, you hear about other people building towers (or worse, occupying old towers you built), while all you've managed to build in your new life is a little pile of sand. In a panic, you grab on to what little you have left, hoping it will save you. You cling to an old identity, jealousy hold on to your past, just so you don't feel like such a nothing.

But it's futile. It's like trying to reattach a loose tooth that's been dangling from your gum by one thread. The past doesn't work for you anymore. It's gotta go. You know it. There's no other way. There's that panic when you make the leap. A moment of pain, a sad goodbye. Dying breaths. Death. Transition. Newness. Initial fear of newness. Then, lightness.

Gotta hold on for that Leap of Faith.

*boring puro words.haha*




























his regret (leaving me) is the cherry on top of my ice cream. love it.

*hmm.. "tuyo ng damdamin"... bakit? kailan ba naging basa ang damdamin?? bwahahaha. funny.

*para kang P.A., na laging umaalalay sakin... bwahaha! fun!


this time i'll surrender my everything.

ira: ingat ka! ingat ka!
sarkie: *walang sinabi*
ira: cge, ingat ako pauwi!
sarkie: ahaha ingat kaaaa!!!!

i have a limited number of friends. and am happy with it. ever since high school isang group of friends lang ang pinapahalagahan ko. maybe its because exclusive akong person. i hate it when ur friends hit on you. rarr. it creeps the hell out of me. yuckness. walang ganyanan, friends tayo eh. conyo ka. at ayoko sa conyo. gusto ko rocker. nde.. actually, gusto ko si *blah*! ahaha. tigilan mo ako. leche.

big news: may babae na si louie.. bkt, sino bang wala? astig. haha. maybe now we can actually be friends. may babae na sha eh. so okay na. get it? ..cge, sabi nga ni *blah*.. "ingat ka!!!"..still, if i were him di na ako masasan beda!